There is nothing like a good gabfest with a good good girlfriend, nothing! Unfortunately, for us (let’s call her Olivia) we live on opposite sides of the pond. However, the distance does not deteriorate our bond. No matter how long it’s been since our last visit or call we pick up right where we left off.
Through this process Olivia has been my rock! She is also a member of this not so exclusive club; Divorcée although her membership goes further back than mine, our stories have some similarities.
It had been awhile since we last spoke- there is only so much you can say via text. So much had a happened: we both stepped into our fourth decade and I knew she was reaching and closing another chapter in her divorce book. So, an old-fashioned phone call was in order.
After all the pleasantries were exchanged, I jumped right in: I was so happy for her, she had just signed her separation agreement AND found her new home!!! In my eyes, it was perfect! Had we been on the same continent, I would have been there with the champagne ready to celebrate… If you have been following the blog, you know that finding and having my OWN home are priority number 1 on my list. https://ledivorcee.com/2017/03/17/trying-to-move-on/
So, I was somewhat surprised that Olivia wasn’t in a celebratory mode. She was quite honest and frank as she told me that she was a bit scared! She knows that this is what she wants, but after all this time of fighting and back and forth, to actually sign the paper that effectively ends your “happily ever after” is a big damn deal. Shit is REAL now. The marriage is over and a new chapter is starting but you still have the right to mourn the loss and I get that- I do.
However, upon hearing my girl Olivia, who is grace under pressure, personified, utter the words that she was scared starting me thinking about my own shituation situation. Her concerns are normal and practical. She was now solely responsible for her home and its maintenance and any other thing that might come her way. Did I mention that Olivia is a total bad ass, she is a force to be rekonned with and is a top PR executive with long list of A- list clients? She makes things happen and she has personally gotten my whole life together on several occasions- AND if she was scared, then I was terrified!
Have my years of Stepford Wifery equipped me with skills that this new life will demand of me? I know where to get the latest Louboutin’s and Celine bags at a discount but if the water pipes burst, I don’t think that will be very helpful. Unless, of course I am not at home when said pipes burst and will need to replace any items that have been damaged by the water… but I digress.
Since, I moved to Switzerland I have not worried about money or even thought about that much- it was just always there. Things are so much different now. Things will change and I will adjust. I am worried. I am terrified. But at the same time, I am excited. I am thrilled and most importantly I AM UP FOR THE CHALLENGE!
“Everything you want is on the other side of fear.”- Jack Canfield